Two Million Thoughts

I’m not really a big fan of love letters. I’ve always think of these things as the corniest crap the world has ever invented. I always catch myself reading love letter from the past and I could not help but smirk at those mushy love lines that was never realized and edit whatever grammatical errors I could spot.

But then, after reading this love letter, I suddenly had this change of heart and mind. So I am posting this fictional love letter which was destined to change my destiny. Haha;-) I don’t know if I am making sense, here… All I know is that I just had to post this… And I have to thank the hardworking GirlTalker who transcribed all these for all of us… Here goes…

My dear Celine,

One day I will disappear completely. The letters will mean nothing. The world will get tired of me…You will get tired of me, I will get tired of myself and I… I will never get tired of you. For you there will be no endings. I will say your name over and over like a refrain, my prayer to no one. Then I’ll be a flower, the one you’ll never pick. I will endure the breathless waiting till boundaries disappear…

Only travelers leave but I’ve never been a  traveler for I have never left. I’m lost, simply. Wanting to be in a place I’ve never been and will never be…  Of all destiniations, I long to be lost in the fields of your hair, lost among your thoughts as you are already in mine.  My life started when I loved you and that is how I want it to end.

Yours forever,

JB

It’s good to be back! There are lots to say but there is too little time and space. I never thought I would miss blogging this much! Or that I would terribly miss Friendster after a week of not visiting the site.

It’s just that my good old friends, Hyperacidity and URTI, visited me once again and there I was, stuck in my room for almost a week!

But it was not a fruitless week, indeed. I finished rereading The Order of the Phoenix of the Harry Potter series, The Joy Luck Club, and the Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood! I never thought I could finish the thick Potter book, but as expected, JKRowling has again left me wanting to read more, never mind that that was the third time I read the book.

The Order of the Phoenix holds a special place in my heart. Had JKRowling not killed Sirius Black, my ultimate favorite HP character, then it would have easily gotten the number 1 spot in my fave HP series.

I was watching Spidey 3 when I got to watch the HP5 trailer and I desperately wished I had someone to share the same passion and excitement of seeing Book Five come alive.

I just thought that with the coming of the movie adaptation, it would be great to re-read the book once again to be able to rate the movie well. I’m quite excited how the production people will transform all the memorable magical creatures and events in book into visuals. It would be nice to compare the creativity and wild imagination of different individuals. Like I have my own vision of a Thestral, but I would like to know how it will be interpreted in the movie.

Here are the characters and events I am looking forward to in the moveie: Dolores Umbridge (which, as the trailer showed, was very well interpreted in the movie); Number Twelve, Grimmauld Palace, the screaming Blacks, and Kreacher; The Nine Guards that went to see Harry, especially Nymphadora Tonks; Ron and Ginny in the Quidditch team; Hagrid’s Little Big Brtother; the Thestrals; Luna Lovegood, St. Mungo’s; Kingsley Shacklebolt and the real Mad-Eye Moody; Umbridge’s scary detention tactics; Fred and George Weasley’s grand exit from Hogwarts; the escape of the ten Death Eaters; Dumbledore’s Army; Minerva McGonagall’s punchlines against Dolores Umbridge; Firenze; the Department of Mysteries; Bellatrix Lestrange; the Room of Requirement; the duel between the Death Eaters and the DA, and later the Order Members; Sirius Black; the chapter, Beyond the Veil; the duel between Voldy and Harry and APWBD; Sirius Black; Sirius Black; and Sirius Black.

Last night, I was crying hard again after reading Beyond the Veil and the chapter after. It amazes me that although I have read the book the third time, I can still feel the pain and agony of losing Padfoot/Snuffles or simply, as Bellatrix had called him, the Animagus Black. And I had to console myself over and over again that there must be a good reason why he has to be killed. (But then again, Dumbledore was killed in Book 6. Does she really have to kill all the great people surrounding Harry? Well, maybe, yes. She wants a good reason for Harry to use the AvadaKedavra curse but then, it’s Dark magic, should Harry use that? Isn’t there another way to kill Voldy without using this curse?) And of course, I have accepted the fact that I think JKR had intended to kill Sirius and never intended to make him appear ever again. The Magical Mirror he gave to Harry was now shattered. He chose not to be a ghost. There are no other plausible way for Harry to see his godfather back. Book 6 did not give any clue either. Let’s just keep our fingers crossed that Book 7 will justify everything…

And oh, I already have had my reservations for the last installment, the Deathly Hallows.   

My Hair Story

To those who know me best, this wouldn’t come as a surprise. I had another haircut to culminate April. I just love going to the parlor again…and again…and again… I’m so happy with how it turned out, thanks to the expert hands of Sol of David’s Salon. Actually, I had been subtly telling my parents about how I desperately wanted short, short hair, and in effect impliedly asking them for moo-lah. So, that was it. They both gave us some budget for a much needed salon trip. Hay…I’m 23 and I still have to beg for money!

On My Pursuit for Happyness

Well, I worry and fret a lot. To use someone’s line, I thrive in drama. I float and flirt with misery. But the latest crisis in my life has taught me to value life. I was able to realize that life is beautiful, despite its ups and downs. And whatever I am going and hurdling through right now, I am optimistic I’ll breeze through ‘em all, with style. (Ayt, gorgeousgracey? *wink*) I know Someone Up There is looking after me. I’ll be fine, come hell or high waters!

Rumors Have It

There was a rumor brewing among SULAW studes that I, and some of my first year batchmates, are transferring to some law school in some distant island. Haha! Well, that rumor will cease to be such as I declare here that indeed, it is true. *wink*

I don’t see any logic on why some people have made it a big deal. Like it is some kind of a mortal sin to transfer. And to clear things up, no, it’s not the teaching force nor the system that made me contemplate of transferring. It’s simply the fact that I am overstaying in Dumaguete. As TuscanSun wrote, every chapter must come to an end, and every book must be closed. But let me point out the blatant obvious, I am still contemplating. In the end, it would have to depend upon my family’s decision.

Cebu vs. Dumaguete

Still on the transferring issue, I think there are advantages and disadvantages on both transferring and staying put. Dumaguete has been my second home; everybody knows everybody; people are great; things are affordable; Silliman is ever present; environment is everybody’s concern. All summed up, staying in Silliman means a healthy and quality living.

As for Cebu, well, everybody knows that the law schools there are better than any of the law schools in Dumaguete. But the disadvantage is, tantanan, the surroundings. I have always said that I won’t survive a week in Cebu, unless I stay in an airconditioned house and I am chauffeured around in a nice car with full-blast aircon. I have been in Cebu many times and I always end up getting the inevitable URTI or LRTI. Yeah, the last time I was there was during the Intramurals Week of SU. I arrived early at 7am, and by 10 in the morning, I was already sneezing non-stop. Going to Cebu would be like saying hello to asthma for me!

Some Things to Look Forward To

If there is one thing I am most excited about, it’s May 14, election day. This is the time where I will be sitting as one of the members of the Board of the Election Inspectors (BEI). I’m quite thrilled to apply whatever knowledge I have acquired from our marathon discussion in election laws. I know it entails a lot of hard work, but who cares?

And of course, I can’t wait to be back in Dumaguete. And perhaps, proceed to Cebu afterwards. Whew!

Aside from these, I am looking forward to watching Perfect Stranger, Fracture and Lucky You. I just love thriller movies and the trailer of the Hale Berry-Bruce Willis flick is something that would make my money’s worth. Fracture, on the other hand, tackles the gripping reality of prosecution and conviction and I think it really is good exposure for me. Besides, Ryan Gosling stars with Anthony Hopkins in this movie. As for the third one, I love Eric Bana sooooo much! And I have always admired Drew Barrymore’s feel-good love films.